hello all... im passing through what has been one of the worst phases of my life... where nothing seems to be going right... all luck has deserted me... and Gods dont seem to be listening either... but i should have seen this phase coming... i shouldve been better prepared... from the day the b-school bug bit me...
i simply have to write about my b-school experiences... probably that will help get the sick feeling off my system... well let me start at the beginning... i was a happy (nope, not happy, my college has rules against ppl being happy in it)... so let me begin again... i was an ordinary engineering student, one of the million such ppl, in a slightly above average engg coll... having no aspirations greater than clearing all my papers in the first shot... that was as close to happiness i could get... i shouldve stayed put! then i happened to have a nice, long conversation with my cousin... who has all the brains that God allotted to my family, stashed away in his head... thats quite greedy, u must agree! ;) anywayz, this cousin of mine is someone i look up to and he at the time was in xlri... so we got around to talking wat i was planning on doing once i finished engineering... i had only abt then gotten over my tryst with the iits... (which is another pathetic joke, altogether)... at the end of the conversation, anywayz, he had just about convinced me that getting an mba is the way to go... and he told me, that if i didnt manage to land a b-school, it still wouldnt matter, coz i'd have atleast been a part of one of the biggest processes in indian education - the CAT... hey hari! im not quoting ur exact words, coz 1. i dont remember ;) 2. this is wat it conveyed to me anywayz! n for those of u who rnt hari, let me explain, hari is my cousin... the guy who is greedy over the brains... ;)
well, after that conversation, the mba aspiration was sown in my mind... it wasnt long before i joined TIME... and personally i think they do a pretty good job... but i guess i was too much an "engineering student" to actually go bak home and work on my own... not when there wasnt an exam the next day! so life went on... every sunday was eat-pastries-n-puffs day... alias cat class day... i had classes on saturday too, but i was usually zoned out due to being in college the whole day anyways, so no point mentioning that...
and then time flew (it always does) and the mock-cats started... this was like a roller coaster ride... sometimes things went well enough and i was pleased with my performance and then the very next week there would be a dip in performance... so many ups n downs... the wretched, desperate feeling started then... i will title it the WDF... coz its a major factor in my life now... :P
to be honest, i put in only abt 10 days of work (note, i still dont say "hard" work)... not my fault, i wud have gotten around to working hard, but CAT didnt wanna wait... anywayz, the 2 n 1/2 hrs of cat was probably the shortest 2 n 1/2 hrs ever... my speed was slower than usual and i guess tortoises wud have seemed like horses compared to me... :( i came out with the WDF increased a hundred-fold... i had just managed to mess up CAT... a simple, easy, ridiculously lucrative paper...
the month that followed was a horrible one... anna univ exams came up... and coupled to it was the i-messed-up-cat feeling... sick! to say the least! anywayz, immediately after this came snap... messed that up as well... and had a hangover for abt a week after it... to cut a long story short, xat didnt work wonders for me either... :( and one thing i cant stand abt the whole rigmarole is that cat and snap were EASY..... sigh! i guess some things are never meant to be... poor poor me...
but im glad its all done and over with... i dont wanna think id have been better off not trying... this process has been a reality check... hari was right... the b-school process is a good teacher by itself... guess some lessons are meant to be learnt the hard way... to conclude, i gave this a shot, it didnt work, im none the worse for it... as for the WDF, i guess it'll wear off....
