random stuff

waiting... the one thing i hate more than anything else! ironically that's all i get to do on a regular basis... wait... wait... wait... and then wait some more... its frustrating to say the least... i wonder what's worse... having too much to do and having no time... or having all the time in the world and nothing to do... right now, id say its the latter...

incompetency... that's another thing that gets me down... true, life wont run like clockwork... but time is ticking away... im getting older... and im wasting half my youth waiting... incompetency can be tolerated,,, once in a while,,, but when incompetency is all you find.... aaarrrggghhh...

destiny... that's something i believe in... one cannot escape destiny... no matter what... it is the law of life... but dont all laws have loopholes???

luck... this steadily eludes me... maybe i can do without it... i have... for 9 months now...

anger... my contant companion... anger at having to wait... anger at having to put up with incompetency... anger at what destiny has in store... anger at having no luck... anger... at just about everything...

doubt... as to what the future has in store...

prayer... the one thing that saves me... the one thing that keeps me going... the one thing that makes me believe i can beat all odds... Thank God for prayer!