random stuff

waiting... the one thing i hate more than anything else! ironically that's all i get to do on a regular basis... wait... wait... wait... and then wait some more... its frustrating to say the least... i wonder what's worse... having too much to do and having no time... or having all the time in the world and nothing to do... right now, id say its the latter...

incompetency... that's another thing that gets me down... true, life wont run like clockwork... but time is ticking away... im getting older... and im wasting half my youth waiting... incompetency can be tolerated,,, once in a while,,, but when incompetency is all you find.... aaarrrggghhh...

destiny... that's something i believe in... one cannot escape destiny... no matter what... it is the law of life... but dont all laws have loopholes???

luck... this steadily eludes me... maybe i can do without it... i have... for 9 months now...

anger... my contant companion... anger at having to wait... anger at having to put up with incompetency... anger at what destiny has in store... anger at having no luck... anger... at just about everything...

doubt... as to what the future has in store...

prayer... the one thing that saves me... the one thing that keeps me going... the one thing that makes me believe i can beat all odds... Thank God for prayer!

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have you ever been in a crowd and still felt u were all alone???
have you heard talk and laughter all around you and still felt there was silence???
have you longed to have someone to talk to while being halfway through a conversation???

i know this sounds crazy,,, but ive felt all these things and more... a sea of faces drowns you and you still feel you are all alone... people might be talking but it doesnt have any relevence... you are all alone... despite being in a crowd...

beats me...

you know wat really beats me??? the constant need most humans feel,,, to analyse every action of their fellow humans,,, for some ulterior motive... to read between the lines... to figure out "what really he/she meant"... there's no such thing as taking things at their face value, anymore... atleast not in this part of the world where i live... every action is judged... every word weighed... a good person is never just a good person... he/she obviously has something to gain by being good... come on!!! its not too bad to trust... atleast trust a little...

it wud be easier to take things at their face value,,, instead of conducting post-mortems on every word n deed... why not give ppl a chance? why not believe wat they say n leave it at that? why is it so hard to appreciate another's good qualities??? why is there such a desperate need to criticise??? im not saying im impervious to this need... i judge too... n im aware that im judged in turn... it makes no difference to me though, if ppl consider facts wen judging... its wen fiction rules judgement, that i totally lose it!!!!

everybody wants to be loved... wats wrong with that??? "nothing", you say? yeah right! nothing is wrong as long as it is YOU who does the wanting... the moment someone else opts to do something that wud make him/her more loved,,, the whole fiasco begins... the same ole tiring exercise of talking, analysing, jumping to conclusions n then airing them as facts... ive seen it happen (and prolly done the same myself) a million times n im growing heartily sick of it! gossip keeps most ppl going... and im sick n tired of that too! i mean, cmon now! let things be! ppl have enough to handle,,, without having vicious tongues thrown in!!!!

the most prevalent misconception, most ppl suffer from, is that theyre closer to perfection than the rest of the human race... how wrong we are!!!! 1.analyse urself before u analyse another!!! makes more sense,,, is a better use of time,,, and is definitely more rewarding... 2.put urself in the other person's shoes... if it hurts u, it probably is hurting them too! 3.face it! there's more to life than gossip! amen! to that!